Monday, June 28, 2010

quick update~

hello guys.
lame tak jenguk blog.
minggu yg sgt bz.

yes. i went to mckk again.
im done wif the function.
igtkan nk pg kejap jer.
tp aku takkan puas hati selagi tak settle.
dan hasilnya sgt memuaskan hati.

congrats adik2 mckk sekalian.
u guys did a great job.

great times.
sweet memories.
thank u 4 the memories guys!~

now.
sikit lagik nk ke bulan 7.
oh my god.
dah nak balik kampus.
malasnya!!!

aku tak nk melalut panjang2 kali nie.
sbb hari nie rase cm mata nie leh tertutup awal. haha
entry pasal photoshoot tak bole publish lagik.
belum dpt gambar. haha

hmm.
pernah tak korang rase cm tak seronok tp tak tau sbb pe?
rase cm tak sedap hati tp tak tau kenapa dan mengapa.
itu yg aku rase skang. huhuu

kuatlah wahai hati!!

notakaki 1 : im ready for everything. maybe~

Sunday, June 20, 2010

abah~

as i mentioned b4.
today is my photoshoot day.
i will explain tis in the next entry wif all the photos.
but juz to tell u guys.
the concept 4 tis photoshoot is come from me.
yes of cos the idea is from me.
the title is 'teater kehidupan'.
actually tis is a tribute 4 all fathers in the world.
happy father's day!
ade 3 watak yg aku bawak hr nie which is rasenya agk susah. HAHA
seriously kali nie photoshoot aku tak ade kena mengena dgn perasaan :)
i mean b4 nie kan selalu aku main dgn perasaan aku.
but. not 4 today!
i'll explain tis in the next entry guys.
see ya.

selamat hari bapa.
pd abah.
md mokhtar b abdul hamid.
yg dulunya berbasikal usung aku ke sekolah.
yg dulunya sabar menanti aku rehat sbb nk kirimkan makanan.
yg dulunya sentiasa mmberi itu dan ini.
terima kasih abah.
menjaga aku dgn sebaik mungkin hingga kini berada di menara gading.
tak sabar nk grad 2012 dan berikan kejayaan 2 pd abah dan mak :)
selamat hr bapa,abah :)

pd kwn2 yg bapanya sudah tiada lagi.
doakan mereka bahagia di sana :)
ank yg baik adalah ank yg mendoakan kesejahteraan ibu dan bapanya di dunia mahupun di akhirat.
al fatihah~

notakaki 1 : the greatest love of all is easy 2 achieve?

Friday, June 18, 2010

im not ok.

my blog is a place 4 me 2 write anything.
and i know it always about my feeling.
yes,i admit.
bcos i dont know if the wall would hear me.
and if it would be,i bet u.
i will delete my blog.

today is one more day i felt like.
i dont know. juz dont know how to tell u people.
i wake up 4 in a evening (not morning ok).
yes,overnite again. i came back home,oh its 8AM oledy. dushh~
then i went 2 gerbang malam pd malamnya 2 find la konon baju sehelai dua.
but it was really sucks.

then its the time 2 makan-makan n hembus-hembus asap.
bosannya hidup aku. kan?

afterwards. i went back home an turn on my lappy.
online fesbuk n so on.
so many people ask me.
how 2 find ariel n lunamaya punye muvie ha?
aiyo. lambatnye korang.
ive oledy watched it la.
xbest ponn. dah la 3gp. haha
but. it was great! HAHA :P

then. then. then.
oh b4 i lupe.
td mase kat gerbang,ade org jual arnab :)
now i do believe me and arnab really have the equation :)
rabbit,u jd my pet ok someday!

then i was thinking.
sumthin is going so wrong.
i dont know wat it really is.
i felt like.
eventhough i always hu-ha-hu-ha sana hu-ha-hu-ha sini.
but. part of me still missing.
sungguh rase ini sgt cibai!

ok. let me be honest.
i miss someone very badly.
if i had one chance 2 erase sumthin in my mind.
if only i had tis chance.
if only.
if.
from the bottom of my heart.
i would choose 2 erase everything related to someone.
someone that i know. n i will always know.
always in my heart.
even die tak ade kat depan mata.
even aku tak nmpak die kat mana2.
even aku tak dpt peluang jumpe die.
even org perlekehkan perasaan aku.
but one thing 4 sure.
die mmg xde kat depan mata aku.
die mmg takkan aku jumpe kat mana2.
dan mmg aku takde peluang jumpe die.
mmg. yes. that is true.

tapi. die ade kat sini.
kat dalam hati aku.

enough faer.
i miss u so badly.

if only u could feel wats im feeling now.
but u just dont know.
how does it feels~

sorry guys.
im a loser.
yes. i am!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

eventhough!

azam tahun 2010.

aku igt lagik soalan one of my lectures dlm kls sem lepas.
apekah azam baru kamu tahun ini.

4 me. ade 3 jer.
1) dptkan balik deanlist.
2) dptkan balik hidup aku.
3) tak mahu sedih2 lagik.

dan aku tau azam no 2 dan 3 mmbuatkan org tertnya tanya wat exactly happened 2 me.

ok,bukan nk cite pasal azam no 2 dan 3.
but yg 1st.

hr nie result sem lps keluar.
n i am totally scared cos i knew it wud be so hard.

but thanx God.
alhamdulillah. segala puji-pujian buat Dia.

wlwpun aku down.
aku selalu putus semangat dan bukan senang nk bangkit dr kecewa yg sgt menggugat jiwa.
wlwpun aku stady last minute (well dats faer,dont deny it)
wlwpun aku selalu main2.
but im ready.
sbb aku tau jatuh bangun aku pun.
sbb diri aku sendiri.

wlwpun agk trkejut pd mulanya.
but im heppy.
aku dpt result yg baik.
baik dr sem lps 4 sure.
even sikit je lagik nk dpt dekan balik.
terlalu hampir.
but. im satisfied!

dgn ape yg aku dah usahakan.
aku sgt puas hati.
dan aku rase azam no 1 aku dah tercapai :)
even aku xdpt deanlist.

thank u Allah.

faer.
congratulation.
kau bole jatuh. kau bole tersungkur.
dan hanya kau yg bole bangun dr semua kekecewaan itu.
keep on going.
i love u.

azam no 2 dan 3 still in progress.

to conclude.
im happy.

notakaki 1 : i dedicated tis special 2 my light eyes.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

rezeki lepas menyingle. HAHA


i got the offer!
but so sad.
terpaksa tolak meski hati kate.
no! u should accept it!

wuuuu.
begini alkisahnye.

ade kenalan aku nie.
die offer aku job.
which is aku speechless bile dgr die offer job 2 kat aku.

yes. bout photography.
die offer keje dgn die kat metrowealth.
since die assistant director kat situ.
then die wat gak photoshoot utk ape2 event or photoshoot artist.
so die tak bole dh nk catch up dua2 keje sekali.
then die offer job photoshoot n modelling 2 kat aku.
sbb die tau minat aku n die suke foto2 aku.

so. tis is the chance.
no. i cant!
aku still study.
dat one is my priority.

then kalo nk wat part time.
aku takot tak bole nk bg full commitment.
even skang tgh sem break but i have so many things to do.

seriously aku nk sgt job nie.
sbb nie minat aku.
then aku tau peluang nie bukan dtg selalu. kan?
but.
kadang2 kite kena korbankan sesuatu kan.
utk sesuatu yg lebih baik.

so. aku dah tolak offer 2.
even mcm berat n serba salah.
but i have to!

dan aku tau peluang takkan dtg sekali. kan?
its ok.
so i guess tis is a kickstart 4 me 2 learn more n more.
but im heppy.
at least aku tau ade org yg nmpak usaha n kerja aku:)

after tis. hasilkan gambar2 yg lagik menarik n pelik.
yes. pelik. sume org ckp gambar aku pelik. aku tau.
dats the identity.
again. i dont like things plain without any specific meaning.

faer. it really ur passion.
it shows!!

feelinblue
keep up:)

notakaki 1 : fotoshoot next week kat gunung lang. come join us!
notakaki 2 : afrika selatan mode. viva espana!!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

im lovin it!


here was the story.
on wednesday nite i went to kuala kangsar to help one of my fren there.
since i am so fuckingbored at home n doin nothin.
so ive decided.
yes,i come.
4 me kuala kangsar is very sentimental.
not bcos my dad was born here.
but. i dont know.
since im 19,im juz love the surroundings here.
so when i get the chance again to be here.
why not,kan?

it was really a great journey.
i went to MCKK where as i know one of my bestfren will say tis.
'OMG! ko pg tak ajak aku kan? dah la aku tringin nk masuk sana,tp xdpt.'
haha. sorry!
faer was there!!!

here was the story when im in a bus on my way back 2 ipoh.
berry send me a message asked me out to yikfoong 4 his saloon time. haha
eventhough i am so tired but i miss berry a lot.
plus, its a time 4 both of us 2 have a long chit chat.
lame tak merepek dgn die.

actually tis is my point 4 tis entry. haha
i dont know wat happened 2 me.
im totally addicted 2 MC'D!
omg. no kfc. no kfc. haha
so. since im so hungry.
berry,jom mkn mc'd?
he was totally shocked n said.
'eh ko bukan cucu tokwan KFC ke?' haha
people changed la. oops.
so. here it is.
im so so so addicted 2 mc'd.
im juz lovin it now :)

then the drama continues when we went to the yikfoong 4 the haircut.
no,not me.
mentang2 aku regular customer.
cina tuh trus nk pgang rambut aku.
rambut aku pendek lagik lah. haha
but. i juz luv rambut berry yg ini.
even cm kanak2 riang.
tp nice. sudeh!

so moral of the story.
aku bosan sbb tak bole tido.
then aku merepek sambil tetibe nk me'english'kan entry aku yg ini.
pastue aku tak tau nk update ape.
then aku teringat pasal mc'd.
mc'd lagik. haha
btw kat ipoh ade mc'd baru bukak kat sunway.
24 hours ok? hahaha
burger king? even bru gak dibukak kat ipoh nie.
tp tak try lagik.
bnyak duit engkau nk melantak je?
HAHAHA

sudeh.
sehingga jari bertemu keybord lagik yer :P



BERRY
kanak2 ribena dgn rambut barunye.

extra 1 : im lovin it.
extra 2 : hidup nie mmg cm taik palat. tp sok still ade,kan?

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

its june~

sorry kalau entry aku nie bnyak bercerita pasal perasaan.

ok,lets start.

aku ingat panas smpai petang.
tgk2 pukul 1 tgh hari dah hujan lebat.
habis basah lenjun (maklum la payung tak bwk).
tp nk wat cmne kan?
dah Tuhan turunkan hujan.
siapa lah kite nk menidakkannya.

sekali lagik. hati aku dibuat mcm tin kosong yg berdenting bile digolekkan.
oleh siapa? oleh org yg bru aku nk syg.
takmo cite panjang2.
cukup la aku ckp.
yes,aku kecewa.

can u give me one good reason why i should be sad?
no,dont be so sure.
disebabkan pengalaman dulu yg bnyak mngajar aku.
dan jugak aku pernah melalui kekecewaan yg lagik teruk dr yg ini.
so,npe aku nk sedih2?
klw ade yg igt aku akn jadik spt dulu.
nope,u r totally wrong.
kecewa dan sedih bukan dtg seiring.
kite bole kecewa tp jgn biar hati kite trus rebah.
sbb kite masih punya hari esok utk kite truskan.
wlwpun aku selalu tertnya tnya.
kenapa aku susah sgt nk bahagia.
but. i know wat it really means.

yg terindah hanyalah sementara.
yes,betul.
thanks kawan2 yg tak jemu2 bg semangat pd aku dr dulu until now.
faer loves u guys.
thanks jugak kat kwn2 facebook yg sudi add aku balik lps aku tukar relationship status.
idiot,im not even put my eyes on u la bengong!

well,lets start again.
hey,im faer.
bole berkenalan?
nama u? ooh nice name.
btw,u nk pg mane jer?
ooh kebetulan pulak.
i pun nk pg sane jugak. may i join u?

bla bla bla bla bla..

we'll see,how far it goes.

see ya!

extra 1 : 2 words 4 israel. KAU PONDAN!
extra 2: maggy CINTAN lg sedap dr CINTA.